Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Do you have the time?

I knelt to pray but not for long,
I had too much to do.
I had to hurry and get to work
For bills would soon be due.

So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
And jumped up off my knees.
My Christian duty was now done
My soul could rest at ease.

All day long I had no time
To spread a word of cheer.
No time to speak of Christ to friends,
They'd laugh at me I'd fear.

No time, no time, too much to do,
That was my constant cry,
No time to give to souls in need
But at last the time, the time to die.

I went before the Lord,
I came, I stood with downcast eyes.
For in his hands God held a book;
It was the book of life.

God looked into his book and said
"Your name I cannot find.
I once was going to write it down...
But never found the time."

Do you have the time to pass it on?

A Summer Prayer

Lord,
Our days are long
and our schedules are full.
You said when we are weary
we can come to you
and you will give usd rest.
So we come to you now
and ask you to...
Renew our spirits.
Restore our strength.
Refresh our hearts.
Thank You for being
the source of all we need
to do everyting
You have callled us to do.
Wherever we go,
and whatever we face today,
may we live in Your presence
because that is the only place
we can truly be rejuvenated.
Amen.
-------Holly Gerth.

Friday, July 06, 2007

奔奔满月了

时间飞逝,转眼间,奔奔已经出生快一个月了。

这短短一个月时间,真的感觉到为人父母真不容易。这是一份最棒的工作,也是最难的工作;它虽能带给你莫大的喜乐,却也能引发你最深的痛苦。没有任何事情能令人如此满足喜乐,更没有任何事情能叫人如此精疲力竭。当事事顺利时,你会感到自己站在成功的巅峰,而当事情出岔时,你便会立时觉得自己一败涂地。(引自《如何为你的孩子祷告》)

上面这句话真的描述了我的内心世界。

当孩子在母腹中时,每天晚上睡觉前,都不忘为他按手祷告,他在腹中跳跃涌动时,我初尝了为父的喜乐滋味。那时,我觉得自己已经预备好了,等着他出来。6月10日,奔奔似乎是如约而至(参见我在6月8日写的文章),我心被喜乐充满,一直盼望见到的奔奔终于可以抱在怀里了。他给我们带来了莫大的喜乐,真是神给我们的祝福!

然而,这并不是一切,伴随他而来的还有尿布和哭闹。奔奔的哭闹很快让我认识到自己是多么没有耐心,多么没有温柔。保罗弟兄在林前爱的颂歌中,第一条就是"爱是恒久忍耐",这对我来说,也是最难的。在奔奔哭闹的时候,特别是半夜哭闹的时候,我真的想大喊:救命啊!--确实让我感到精疲力竭,一败涂地。

刚刚喂饱,打过嗝了,尿布也很干爽,躺的姿势也很舒适,也没有文字,气温也不热,为什么就哭呢?

昨天晚上,我躺在床上,满心的挫败感,一点办法都没有。有位姊妹常常说的话,想在我耳边,人的尽头是神的开始。这时候才想起来,全家很长时间没有一起祷告了,特别是为奔奔祷告!

立即起身,向神悔改自己的愚蠢,再一次把奔奔交托在大能的主的手上。祷告完了时候,神立即应允了!半夜爱惊醒啼哭的奔奔,随后一直睡到天亮。感谢神!

�的名真是奇妙!在我们各样的亏欠上,显出神的丰富;在我们的软弱上,显出神的大能。

回想这过去的一个月,神确实保守了奔奔的健康,也看顾了我们全家。而当我蒙此厚恩时,经渐渐远离的神,于是自己精疲力竭,一败涂地。因为神是我们的力量,在�之外,我们一无所能!神借着一点点小苦难(奔奔的哭闹),提醒了我:我是这个家中的祭司,要在神面前对妻子和儿子的属灵状况负责!要时刻亲近神,回到神面前,不要做那愚蠢的孩子!

谨以此文庆祝奔奔满月,也记录下我这个正在成长中的父亲。