Saturday, December 31, 2005

写在2005年末

又开始这个年初年末的循环,到了这个时间,总是不自觉地思考一下。说实话,自己有点懒,但是今年发生的事情让我不得不写........
如果对照2005年计划的话,无疑,今年又是一个失败,如同以前感觉一样,然后沉痛的反思一下,写下下一年的豪言壮语。然后再失败,再反思,再励志,,
然后,我终于明白了一个道理:靠自己做事太难了。自己是靠不住的,自己的感觉,自己的计划,甚至自己的原则都是太脆弱,太不堪一击了。
回想自己在2005年得到的一些教训没有一个能够脱离这个圈子。做投资,职业设计,人事关系,个人信念等等。自己以前的教训又何尝不是因为凡事靠自己呢。
那靠别人行么?自己都靠不住,如何谈靠别人呢?
那靠谁呢?自己也靠不住,别人靠不住,生活岂不没有了只望?

我很幸运,我刚刚有些迷茫的时候,神叩了我的门,我就开了,并且请他进来了。这是件很神奇的事情。老米问我,什么使我信了基督?如果用一句话来回答:神的恩典。
-----2005第一件大事,耶稣进入到我的生命里,我成为了一名基督徒。

如果有人在2005年年初告诉我,你今年要结婚。我会一笑了之,什么都没有,怎么结婚啊。呵呵,刚才上楼的时候问我的同事,他也给我这样的回答。

结婚是一件大事,当然要有准备,我觉得应该包括两种准备:精神上准备;物质上准备。
我没有颠倒次序写的缘故是,精神准备更重要。将做丈夫的在精神上做好准备做丈夫,将做妻子的,在精神上准备好做妻子,这是非常重要的事情。夫妻关系和情侣关系完全不一样,夫妻是一体,是一个人;情侣是两个独立,是两个人。物质上的准备结婚以后可以补足,而且夫妻一起努力,从无到有,建设自己的小家,岂不是一件快事?精神上的预备工作,要做在前面。在进入婚姻之前知道婚姻是什么样子,符合神心意的家庭是什么样子,丈夫和妻子的角色是什么,让家庭从一开始就建立在神的祝福之上。
感谢神,从登记结婚到正式成为夫妻这段时间,众多的主内兄弟姊妹对我们的帮助;
感谢神,对我们婚姻的祝福;
感谢神,对我们婚后的时时刻刻的看顾。
-----2005第二件大事,我结婚了。

2005年就这两件大事。

小事到有不少,流水帐一下:
1、MBA面试失利
2、股票收益得而复失
3、苏州游玩一次
4、拍了婚纱照
5、沉迷GOOGLE,使用其各种产品
6、沉迷单反相机,但一直没买
7、BLOG搬家
8、使用flicker网上相册
9、初步学会吹口琴(极不熟练)
10、学会了很多赞美诗


相关链接

>>2005年计划
>>2004年十大
>>2004不想虚度
>>2003离我而去

说说移动最近搞的促销

就是:话费换手机,承诺每月打满一定额度,存押金,就可以换的相应手机一部。

虽然知道天上不可能掉下馅饼,但是我还是去换了一部,
初看下去,好像我们白白得着了一部手机,但移动着怎么挣钱的呢?
思考了一下,它的盈利模式包括如下:
1、现有促销手段的转化
2、押金的年收益
3、绑定的附加服务
4、未来通讯成本的降低

其中,第四条尤为重要,赚未来的钱。
科技发展太快了,各种的垄断将变得越来越稀有,越来越困难。移动也看到了这点,未来的钱不好赚:网络电话如火如荼,几乎没有成本。互联网和通讯网肯定要合一,大势所趋。未来钱不好赚了,所以先利用一点点成本,锁住用户。

另外,有了这种大量的合同关系,垄断地位得以继续维持一段时间。
移动好像说:谁损害我的利益,谁就是损害我用户的利益。成功地把各种风险转嫁到移动的用户身上。而且是一个愿打,一个愿挨,两厢情愿。

但我们普通的用户怎能知道趋势呢?我们掌握的信息怎么能和移动比呢?这是信息不对称下的不公平合同。

但包括我自己在内,还是签下自己的名字。
眼前的诱惑让我们抛开未来。

换手机再怎么说,也不过是几千块钱的小事情。但是,这种模式,这种欺骗每天都在身边发生。那天说不定,我们甚至把自己的生命换成一时欢愉。

一定要警醒。

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

随笔

家:白炽灯下,和面,静静的对坐着,包汤圆,背景音乐是安静的赞美诗。
手机:分散人精神的功效,常常表现得让人无法觉察。
感恩:做到很难的一件事,人很容易把所有所得归于自己,而把它扔到一边。
真实:在水龙头下,用手搓洗黄瓜的时候,忽然感觉这世界如此真实
虚幻:从梦中醒来,忽然想到,这世界何尝又不是一场梦,一场虚幻呢
年龄:年轻时毫不在意,在意时已不年轻的东西。
计划:严格的说,往往是高过自己能力的篮筐,想着自己能够把球投中,往往只能砸着篮板。
总结:总是不知不觉脱离了计划,总是能够结出一些东东,用于各种用途

Friday, December 16, 2005

束缚

很长一段时间里,我自己一直很软弱。
更可悲的是,我一直意识不到自己这一点。 今天想到这个题目,一击中的。
我确实一直内心被束缚。
这个世界有太多引诱你的东西了。
记得,有一次,老米跟我说,他曾经在深夜里独自走过王府井大街,
漠然地看着那充斥欲望的地方,
白天的喧嚣和夜晚的死静。

可以想象他的感觉。
羡慕他当时的漠然。
这个世界何尝不是一条充斥欲望的街呢?我们只是过客而已。没有东西我们能够带走,不是吗?
路边的橱窗多么吸引人啊,我左顾右盼,就不向前看;
漂亮的衣服,奢侈的装饰,美味的饮食,权利,征服,骄傲,,,没有一样不吸引我。
有多少人能够做到“漠然”呢?
因我的肉体本属于这,我的灵被肉体所缚。

但我的归宿不在这里
“地上本没有长存的城”

Luk 4:5 And he took him up and let him see all the kingdoms of the earth in a minute of time.
Luk 4:6 And the Evil One said, I will give you authority over all these, and the glory of them, for it has been given to me, and I give it to anyone at my pleasure.
Luk 4:7 If then you will give worship to me, it will all be yours.
Luk 4:8 And Jesus in answer said to him, It has been said in the Writings, Give worship to the Lord your God, and be his servant only.

是啊,
得着整个世界又怎样呢?
得着世界,却成为撒旦的奴仆,这又有何益呢?

主啊!
我呼求你,
求你饶恕孩子的软弱!
求你救孩子脱离属世的各种诱惑,

孩子是怎样的一个卑微的人呢?
孩子能有什么能力同魔鬼撒旦抗争呢?
惟有依靠你,主啊,惟有你是我的救主!

主啊!
我呼求你,
求你张开手臂,让孩子在你那里得到庇护
求你让孩子灵里强壮,随时依靠你

主啊!
让孩子得着你那上好的福分,
那魔鬼的引诱,孩子必依靠你的力量,转脸不看
从内心里将它剪除!

你是荣耀的主,
大能的主

哈利路亚赞美你!
奉主耶稣基督的名祷告!阿门!

Friday, December 09, 2005

路边煎饼摊

每天早晨上班的路上,都经过这个煎饼摊,都看到它老板。生意不是很多,但是他每天都冒着寒风,准时地出现在这路边。

不过,这个老人的煎饼摊是我见过最牛的。车前拉了一个横幅:独家密制煎饼,欢迎连锁加盟。
我想起了《肖生克的救赎》里的希望:“希望”在20年浮士德的监狱里;“希望”遵循神的旨意安睡在内页被挖空的《圣经》里、附着在安迪高大的身躯里、匍匐在500码的下水道里;“希望”在那橡树下,那块火山石下面;“希望”在太平洋小岛那安静的海边、在那条破船上.....

有些情况下,脆弱的人不敢拥有希望,比如Red
Red: Let me tell you something my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane.
但人若没有了希望,那是怎样的悲哀呢。生活没有了盼望,生活还有什么意义呢?就在那块火山石下,那块不属于受诅之地的石头下面,Andy留下一张纸条:Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies.

即便我们在街头卖煎饼,也不要放弃希望。有希望就有可能。 Posted by Picasa

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Wake up with tears...

今天早上是哭着睡醒的。
现在坐在这里试图把梦境用文字复原。
............
那是一个恶劣的天气,满天阴沉沉的,听说是毒气泄露,你我都带着厚厚的口罩。
我们一直在坚持,坚持,听说救援很快就要来了
在我神志仍然清晰的最后一刻,我看见天分成了两半。
一半仍是阴沉沉的,另一半是我最喜欢的蔚蓝色
...........
不知过了多久
我醒了,看到周围的人都疯了
你嫁给了一个胖子!而且我还睡在同一张床上!
屈辱到了极点
我内心燃烧,愤怒,两眼喷火,却无法动弹!
只能有力气轻碰你的趾头,我的内心在嘶哑的叫喊:为什么!
在我死一般的身体上,我感觉到你在屈辱中也轻碰了我的脚趾,,

突然间我的身体有了力量,
我扑向那个胖子,想把他撕成粉碎!
你幽怨的眼神阻止了我,他是无辜的人。

为什么这样!你们都疯了吗?
你是我的老婆!!
我跟你结婚才不到一个月!
为什么你突然嫁给了他!

从你的眼神里
我看到
似乎我知道原因
可是天哪!
我什么都不知道!

我在愤怒中找到我的父亲
求他告诉我为什么这样
年迈的父亲沉默,
然后告诉我,
若我需要女人可以帮我介绍那个漂亮的小学同学

我要她干什么!
你也疯了吗?我质问!
我要的是我的老婆!
你生了我,就这样对我吗?

愤怒中,我找到我的姐夫
求他告诉我为什么这样
姐夫沉默,不语。

你们都怎么了!你们都疯了吗!
当我死了吗!
你们怎么可以这样对我!
你是我的!我的!我的!
我知道怎么爱你,疼你,保护你
我不容任何人玷污你!

我是你的老公
我是你的儿子
我是你的弟兄
你们却当死人一样对我!

天微微亮
我决定独自离开,这疯子一样的世界
你在后面悄悄地跟着我
要跟我一起走

我觉得无法原谅你
因为你不愿意回答究竟发生了什么!
我要自己走,不要跟着我

你顺从的站住了。

可我去那里呢?
我决定去死

我决定去跳河
小时候家乡前面有条大运河很多人选择在那里自杀
从高高的桥上跳入那条深河
我毫不犹豫
周围有好些渔民,扛着渔具跟我一起跳
可是落到水里面我就浮起来了
而且很轻松的在温暖的水里游泳

岸上有好些观众为我鼓掌
说我的游泳姿势不错
然后大家一起上了岸

跳河死不了
我决定去喂狮子

那狮子从草丛中跳出来
张开那血盆大口想要吞噬我
我平静的走向它

他却忽然犹如一条可爱的哈巴狗
依旧张着嘴巴
但却不停的摇着尾巴
围着我的腿边跳舞。

我决定回家
回家只有一条道路

那条路:
高高窄窄的,只容下一只脚
两边是充满污垢的黑水

我不敢走
我只能一点一点地向前爬

一群学生模样的孩子带着午餐
从我后边跳过去 稳稳的走在前面
突然又停下蹲在那里吃午餐
挡住了我的去路

我没有选择
只有用手扒住路
身体贴着路的侧面
这样也过不去

我的一个好友突然在后面向我喊道
嘿!你干吗呢?
我忘记了我在干吗
过来一起打牌好吗?
好啊,
我便退回去了

刚好三缺一
周围还有一群的孩子,羡慕地也想参加
我有意让给孩子们玩
好友说,
这副牌要专门跟我打。

四人坐定后
好友说了声,拿牌来
就有人往桌子上扔了一把虾皮
大家就开始轮流一个一个抓起虾皮
摆在手上,打起牌来

这牌我很小的时候玩过
现在都有点忘了,,
....

醒来,泪流满面。
紧紧地抱住你
神阿!
求你让我们在人世寄居的日子里
彼此陪伴。

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

On the second thought...

近日的中国A股市场可以说一片混乱,权证投资向一磅深水炸弹,炸得大家心惊肉跳。一时间涌现无数捍卫中小投资者的状师,互联网上发帖如潮,骂声怨声不绝于耳,余音绕梁三日不绝。几只权证击败千只A股,权证步步涨停,A股K线风雨飘摇,阴风阵阵、、、、、
一方面,中小企业板块发布不久就节节下挫,两市的A股轮番疲软,多少股民被大浪淘沙,音消云散,淡出舞台;另一方面,风传瑞银从权证大赚中国股民真金白银上亿元。
一方面,国民经济形势大好,GDP增长再创新高,领导人海外采购,一掷千金,大显我怏怏大国豪气万张;另一方面,中国股市屡创新低,同美国、日本、欧洲同期比较大丢颜面。
一方面,T+0,引导资金流向,挥斥方遒;一方面,T+1,有的股票全天无交易,创下基尼斯世界纪录。
、、、
问一句:中国股市怎了?

好多结论就在对这个问题的思考中,在惨痛的轮番破产中,得出来了:
1、远离毒品,远离股票
2、论股市腐败现象制度根源
3、权证是毛,股票是皮,皮之不存,毛将焉附?!

On the second thought、、、、

可以看出来中国的股民不是傻子,制度的不完善,市场的腐败,规则的不公正,很快就有市场反应。
政策的制定者也不可能编制自己的律法,律法是限定秩序的,效果的好坏可以说是尽收眼底,立竿见影。

作为一个心智健全的高层决策者,可以作2个选择:
1、坚持自己做出的决策,放任发展。此时坚守A股的中小股民最后不得不离场。A股不久将如皮不存。
2、除去那些不公正规则,放弃短暂的眼前利益,把握住股市重点(是投资者,而不是券商!),掌握好政策倾向,真正的让股市成为投资、融资工具,而不是夸口“形势一片大好!”让人笑话。

但最终何去何从,只有坐下来,看看。

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

From the bus

Though I can update my blog, I can't see it.
Blogger can't open again. It is not easy for me to move all my posts to blogger. It took me two days.
And now I can't open it.,,, oh
But 3 hour later, I can open it again. Thanks God.

This pic was taken from a bus in the moring. I was on my way to Grape Home.

Monday, December 05, 2005

The Birth of Christ

Excerpt from "The Holy Bible"
Book of Luke

Chapter 2

And it came to pass in those days, that there went out a decree from Caesar Augustus that all the world should be taxed.

(And this taxing was first made when Cyrenius was governor of Syria.)

And all went to be taxed, every one into his own city.

And Joseph also went up from Galilee, out of the city of Nazareth, into Judaea, unto the city of David, which is called Bethlehem; (because he was of the house and lineage of David:)

To be taxed with Mary his espoused wife, being great with child.

And so it was, that, while they were there, the days were accomplished that she should be delivered.

And she brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes, and laid him in a manger; because there was no room for them in the inn.

And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.

And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid.

And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.

For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.

And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.

And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,

Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

And it came to pass, as the angels were gone away from them into heaven, the shepherds said one to another, Let us now go even unto Bethlehem, and see this thing which is come to pass, which the Lord hath made known unto us.

And they came with haste, and found Mary, and Joseph, and the babe lying in a manger.

And when they had seen it, they made known abroad the saying which was told them concerning this child.

And all they that heard it wondered at those things which were told them by the shepherds.

But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart.

And the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things that they had heard and seen, as it was told unto them.

And when eight days were accomplished for the circumcising of the child, his name was called JESUS, which was so named of the angel before he was conceived in the womb.

And when the days of her purification according to the law of Moses were accomplished, they brought him to Jerusalem, to present him to the Lord;

(As it is written in the law of the LORD, Every male that openeth the womb shall be called holy to the Lord;)

And to offer a sacrifice according to that which is said in the law of the Lord, A pair of turtledoves, or two young pigeons.

And, behold, there was a man in Jerusalem, whose name was Simeon; and the same man was just and devout, waiting for the consolation of Israel: and the Holy Ghost was upon him.

And it was revealed unto him by the Holy Ghost, that he should not see death, before he had seen the Lord's Christ.

And he came by the Spirit into the temple: and when the parents brought in the child Jesus, to do for him after the custom of the law,

Then took he him up in his arms, and blessed God, and said,

Lord, now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace, according to thy word:

For mine eyes have seen thy salvation,

Which thou hast prepared before the face of all people;

A light to lighten the Gentiles, and the glory of thy people Israel.

And Joseph and his mother marvelled at those things which were spoken of him.

And Simeon blessed them, and said unto Mary his mother, Behold, this child is set for the fall and rising again of many in Israel; and for a sign which shall be spoken against;

(Yea, a sword shall pierce through thy own soul also,) that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed.

And there was one Anna, a prophetess, the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Aser: she was of a great age, and had lived with an husband seven years from her virginity;

And she was a widow of about fourscore and four years, which departed not from the temple, but served God with fastings and prayers night and day.

And she coming in that instant gave thanks likewise unto the Lord, and spake of him to all them that looked for redemption in Jerusalem.

And when they had performed all things according to the law of the Lord, they returned into Galilee, to their own city Nazareth.

And the child grew, and waxed strong in spirit, filled with wisdom: and the grace of God was upon him.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Traffic jam in B

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