写在2005年末

又开始这个年初年末的循环，到了这个时间，总是不自觉地思考一下。说实话，自己有点懒，但是今年发生的事情让我不得不写........
如果对照2005年计划的话，无疑，今年又是一个失败，如同以前感觉一样，然后沉痛的反思一下，写下下一年的豪言壮语。然后再失败，再反思，再励志，，
然后，我终于明白了一个道理：靠自己做事太难了。自己是靠不住的，自己的感觉，自己的计划，甚至自己的原则都是太脆弱，太不堪一击了。
回想自己在2005年得到的一些教训没有一个能够脱离这个圈子。做投资，职业设计，人事关系，个人信念等等。自己以前的教训又何尝不是因为凡事靠自己呢。
那靠别人行么？自己都靠不住，如何谈靠别人呢？
那靠谁呢？自己也靠不住，别人靠不住，生活岂不没有了只望?

我很幸运，我刚刚有些迷茫的时候，神叩了我的门，我就开了，并且请他进来了。这是件很神奇的事情。老米问我，什么使我信了基督？如果用一句话来回答：神的恩典。
-----2005第一件大事，耶稣进入到我的生命里，我成为了一名基督徒。

如果有人在2005年年初告诉我，你今年要结婚。我会一笑了之，什么都没有，怎么结婚啊。呵呵，刚才上楼的时候问我的同事，他也给我这样的回答。

结婚是一件大事，当然要有准备，我觉得应该包括两种准备：精神上准备；物质上准备。
我没有颠倒次序写的缘故是，精神准备更重要。将做丈夫的在精神上做好准备做丈夫，将做妻子的，在精神上准备好做妻子，这是非常重要的事情。夫妻关系和情侣关系完全不一样，夫妻是一体，是一个人；情侣是两个独立，是两个人。物质上的准备结婚以后可以补足，而且夫妻一起努力，从无到有，建设自己的小家，岂不是一件快事？精神上的预备工作，要做在前面。在进入婚姻之前知道婚姻是什么样子，符合神心意的家庭是什么样子，丈夫和妻子的角色是什么，让家庭从一开始就建立在神的祝福之上。
感谢神，从登记结婚到正式成为夫妻这段时间，众多的主内兄弟姊妹对我们的帮助；
感谢神，对我们婚姻的祝福；
感谢神，对我们婚后的时时刻刻的看顾。
-----2005第二件大事，我结婚了。

2005年就这两件大事。

小事到有不少，流水帐一下：
1、MBA面试失利
2、股票收益得而复失
3、苏州游玩一次
4、拍了婚纱照
5、沉迷GOOGLE，使用其各种产品
6、沉迷单反相机，但一直没买
7、BLOG搬家
8、使用flicker网上相册
9、初步学会吹口琴（极不熟练）
10、学会了很多赞美诗


相关链接

>>2005年计划
>>2004年十大
>>2004不想虚度
>>2003离我而去

说说移动最近搞的促销

就是：话费换手机，承诺每月打满一定额度，存押金，就可以换的相应手机一部。

虽然知道天上不可能掉下馅饼，但是我还是去换了一部，
初看下去，好像我们白白得着了一部手机，但移动着怎么挣钱的呢？
思考了一下，它的盈利模式包括如下：
1、现有促销手段的转化
2、押金的年收益
3、绑定的附加服务
4、未来通讯成本的降低

其中，第四条尤为重要，赚未来的钱。
科技发展太快了，各种的垄断将变得越来越稀有，越来越困难。移动也看到了这点，未来的钱不好赚：网络电话如火如荼，几乎没有成本。互联网和通讯网肯定要合一，大势所趋。未来钱不好赚了，所以先利用一点点成本，锁住用户。

另外，有了这种大量的合同关系，垄断地位得以继续维持一段时间。
移动好像说：谁损害我的利益，谁就是损害我用户的利益。成功地把各种风险转嫁到移动的用户身上。而且是一个愿打，一个愿挨，两厢情愿。

但我们普通的用户怎能知道趋势呢？我们掌握的信息怎么能和移动比呢？这是信息不对称下的不公平合同。

但包括我自己在内，还是签下自己的名字。
眼前的诱惑让我们抛开未来。

换手机再怎么说，也不过是几千块钱的小事情。但是，这种模式，这种欺骗每天都在身边发生。那天说不定，我们甚至把自己的生命换成一时欢愉。

一定要警醒。

随笔

家：白炽灯下，和面，静静的对坐着，包汤圆，背景音乐是安静的赞美诗。
手机：分散人精神的功效，常常表现得让人无法觉察。
感恩：做到很难的一件事，人很容易把所有所得归于自己，而把它扔到一边。
真实：在水龙头下，用手搓洗黄瓜的时候，忽然感觉这世界如此真实
虚幻：从梦中醒来，忽然想到，这世界何尝又不是一场梦，一场虚幻呢
年龄：年轻时毫不在意，在意时已不年轻的东西。
计划：严格的说，往往是高过自己能力的篮筐，想着自己能够把球投中，往往只能砸着篮板。
总结：总是不知不觉脱离了计划，总是能够结出一些东东，用于各种用途

束缚

很长一段时间里，我自己一直很软弱。
更可悲的是，我一直意识不到自己这一点。 今天想到这个题目，一击中的。
我确实一直内心被束缚。
这个世界有太多引诱你的东西了。
记得，有一次，老米跟我说，他曾经在深夜里独自走过王府井大街，
漠然地看着那充斥欲望的地方，
白天的喧嚣和夜晚的死静。

可以想象他的感觉。
羡慕他当时的漠然。
这个世界何尝不是一条充斥欲望的街呢？我们只是过客而已。没有东西我们能够带走，不是吗？
路边的橱窗多么吸引人啊，我左顾右盼，就不向前看；
漂亮的衣服，奢侈的装饰，美味的饮食，权利，征服，骄傲，，，没有一样不吸引我。
有多少人能够做到“漠然”呢？
因我的肉体本属于这，我的灵被肉体所缚。

但我的归宿不在这里
“地上本没有长存的城”

Luk 4:5 And he took him up and let him see all the kingdoms of the earth in a minute of time.
Luk 4:6 And the Evil One said, I will give you authority over all these, and the glory of them, for it has been given to me, and I give it to anyone at my pleasure.
Luk 4:7 If then you will give worship to me, it will all be yours.
Luk 4:8 And Jesus in answer said to him, It has been said in the Writings, Give worship to the Lord your God, and be his servant only.

是啊，
得着整个世界又怎样呢？
得着世界，却成为撒旦的奴仆，这又有何益呢？

主啊！
我呼求你，
求你饶恕孩子的软弱！
求你救孩子脱离属世的各种诱惑，

孩子是怎样的一个卑微的人呢？
孩子能有什么能力同魔鬼撒旦抗争呢？
惟有依靠你，主啊，惟有你是我的救主！

主啊！
我呼求你，
求你张开手臂，让孩子在你那里得到庇护
求你让孩子灵里强壮，随时依靠你

主啊！
让孩子得着你那上好的福分，
那魔鬼的引诱，孩子必依靠你的力量，转脸不看
从内心里将它剪除!

你是荣耀的主，
大能的主

哈利路亚赞美你！
奉主耶稣基督的名祷告！阿门！

路边煎饼摊

每天早晨上班的路上，都经过这个煎饼摊，都看到它老板。生意不是很多，但是他每天都冒着寒风，准时地出现在这路边。

不过，这个老人的煎饼摊是我见过最牛的。车前拉了一个横幅：独家密制煎饼，欢迎连锁加盟。
我想起了《肖生克的救赎》里的希望：“希望”在20年浮士德的监狱里；“希望”遵循神的旨意安睡在内页被挖空的《圣经》里、附着在安迪高大的身躯里、匍匐在500码的下水道里；“希望”在那橡树下，那块火山石下面；“希望”在太平洋小岛那安静的海边、在那条破船上.....

有些情况下，脆弱的人不敢拥有希望，比如Red
Red: Let me tell you something my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane.
但人若没有了希望，那是怎样的悲哀呢。生活没有了盼望，生活还有什么意义呢？就在那块火山石下，那块不属于受诅之地的石头下面，Andy留下一张纸条：Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies.

即便我们在街头卖煎饼，也不要放弃希望。有希望就有可能。

Wake up with tears...

今天早上是哭着睡醒的。
现在坐在这里试图把梦境用文字复原。
............
那是一个恶劣的天气，满天阴沉沉的，听说是毒气泄露，你我都带着厚厚的口罩。
我们一直在坚持，坚持，听说救援很快就要来了
在我神志仍然清晰的最后一刻，我看见天分成了两半。
一半仍是阴沉沉的，另一半是我最喜欢的蔚蓝色
...........
不知过了多久
我醒了，看到周围的人都疯了
你嫁给了一个胖子！而且我还睡在同一张床上！
屈辱到了极点
我内心燃烧，愤怒，两眼喷火，却无法动弹！
只能有力气轻碰你的趾头，我的内心在嘶哑的叫喊：为什么！
在我死一般的身体上，我感觉到你在屈辱中也轻碰了我的脚趾，，

突然间我的身体有了力量，
我扑向那个胖子，想把他撕成粉碎！
你幽怨的眼神阻止了我，他是无辜的人。

为什么这样！你们都疯了吗？
你是我的老婆！!
我跟你结婚才不到一个月！
为什么你突然嫁给了他！

从你的眼神里
我看到
似乎我知道原因
可是天哪！
我什么都不知道！

我在愤怒中找到我的父亲
求他告诉我为什么这样
年迈的父亲沉默，
然后告诉我，
若我需要女人可以帮我介绍那个漂亮的小学同学

我要她干什么！
你也疯了吗？我质问！
我要的是我的老婆！
你生了我，就这样对我吗？

愤怒中，我找到我的姐夫
求他告诉我为什么这样
姐夫沉默，不语。

你们都怎么了！你们都疯了吗！
当我死了吗！
你们怎么可以这样对我！
你是我的！我的！我的！
我知道怎么爱你，疼你，保护你
我不容任何人玷污你！

我是你的老公
我是你的儿子
我是你的弟兄
你们却当死人一样对我！

天微微亮
我决定独自离开，这疯子一样的世界
你在后面悄悄地跟着我
要跟我一起走

我觉得无法原谅你
因为你不愿意回答究竟发生了什么！
我要自己走，不要跟着我

你顺从的站住了。

可我去那里呢？
我决定去死

我决定去跳河
小时候家乡前面有条大运河很多人选择在那里自杀
从高高的桥上跳入那条深河
我毫不犹豫
周围有好些渔民，扛着渔具跟我一起跳
可是落到水里面我就浮起来了
而且很轻松的在温暖的水里游泳

岸上有好些观众为我鼓掌
说我的游泳姿势不错
然后大家一起上了岸

跳河死不了
我决定去喂狮子

那狮子从草丛中跳出来
张开那血盆大口想要吞噬我
我平静的走向它

他却忽然犹如一条可爱的哈巴狗
依旧张着嘴巴
但却不停的摇着尾巴
围着我的腿边跳舞。

我决定回家
回家只有一条道路

那条路：
高高窄窄的，只容下一只脚
两边是充满污垢的黑水

我不敢走
我只能一点一点地向前爬

一群学生模样的孩子带着午餐
从我后边跳过去 稳稳的走在前面
突然又停下蹲在那里吃午餐
挡住了我的去路

我没有选择
只有用手扒住路
身体贴着路的侧面
这样也过不去

我的一个好友突然在后面向我喊道
嘿！你干吗呢？
我忘记了我在干吗
过来一起打牌好吗？
好啊，
我便退回去了

刚好三缺一
周围还有一群的孩子，羡慕地也想参加
我有意让给孩子们玩
好友说，
这副牌要专门跟我打。

四人坐定后
好友说了声，拿牌来
就有人往桌子上扔了一把虾皮
大家就开始轮流一个一个抓起虾皮
摆在手上，打起牌来

这牌我很小的时候玩过
现在都有点忘了，，
....

醒来，泪流满面。
紧紧地抱住你
神阿！
求你让我们在人世寄居的日子里
彼此陪伴。

On the second thought...

近日的中国A股市场可以说一片混乱，权证投资向一磅深水炸弹，炸得大家心惊肉跳。一时间涌现无数捍卫中小投资者的状师，互联网上发帖如潮，骂声怨声不绝于耳，余音绕梁三日不绝。几只权证击败千只A股，权证步步涨停，A股K线风雨飘摇，阴风阵阵、、、、、
一方面，中小企业板块发布不久就节节下挫，两市的A股轮番疲软，多少股民被大浪淘沙，音消云散，淡出舞台；另一方面，风传瑞银从权证大赚中国股民真金白银上亿元。
一方面，国民经济形势大好，GDP增长再创新高，领导人海外采购，一掷千金，大显我怏怏大国豪气万张；另一方面，中国股市屡创新低，同美国、日本、欧洲同期比较大丢颜面。
一方面，T+0，引导资金流向，挥斥方遒；一方面，T+1，有的股票全天无交易，创下基尼斯世界纪录。
、、、
问一句：中国股市怎了？

好多结论就在对这个问题的思考中，在惨痛的轮番破产中，得出来了：
1、远离毒品，远离股票
2、论股市腐败现象制度根源
3、权证是毛，股票是皮，皮之不存，毛将焉附？！

On the second thought、、、、

可以看出来中国的股民不是傻子，制度的不完善，市场的腐败，规则的不公正，很快就有市场反应。
政策的制定者也不可能编制自己的律法，律法是限定秩序的，效果的好坏可以说是尽收眼底，立竿见影。

作为一个心智健全的高层决策者，可以作2个选择：
1、坚持自己做出的决策，放任发展。此时坚守A股的中小股民最后不得不离场。A股不久将如皮不存。
2、除去那些不公正规则，放弃短暂的眼前利益，把握住股市重点（是投资者，而不是券商！），掌握好政策倾向，真正的让股市成为投资、融资工具，而不是夸口“形势一片大好！”让人笑话。

但最终何去何从，只有坐下来，看看。

From the bus

Though I can update my blog, I can't see it.
Blogger can't open again. It is not easy for me to move all my posts to blogger. It took me two days.
And now I can't open it.,,, oh
But 3 hour later, I can open it again. Thanks God.

This pic was taken from a bus in the moring. I was on my way to Grape Home.

The Birth of Christ

Excerpt from "The Holy Bible"
Book of Luke

Chapter 2

And it came to pass in those days, that there went out a decree from Caesar Augustus that all the world should be taxed.

(And this taxing was first made when Cyrenius was governor of Syria.)

And all went to be taxed, every one into his own city.

And Joseph also went up from Galilee, out of the city of Nazareth, into Judaea, unto the city of David, which is called Bethlehem; (because he was of the house and lineage of David:)

To be taxed with Mary his espoused wife, being great with child.

And so it was, that, while they were there, the days were accomplished that she should be delivered.

And she brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes, and laid him in a manger; because there was no room for them in the inn.

And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.

And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid.

And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.

For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.

And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.

And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,

Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

And it came to pass, as the angels were gone away from them into heaven, the shepherds said one to another, Let us now go even unto Bethlehem, and see this thing which is come to pass, which the Lord hath made known unto us.

And they came with haste, and found Mary, and Joseph, and the babe lying in a manger.

And when they had seen it, they made known abroad the saying which was told them concerning this child.

And all they that heard it wondered at those things which were told them by the shepherds.

But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart.

And the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things that they had heard and seen, as it was told unto them.

And when eight days were accomplished for the circumcising of the child, his name was called JESUS, which was so named of the angel before he was conceived in the womb.

And when the days of her purification according to the law of Moses were accomplished, they brought him to Jerusalem, to present him to the Lord;

(As it is written in the law of the LORD, Every male that openeth the womb shall be called holy to the Lord;)

And to offer a sacrifice according to that which is said in the law of the Lord, A pair of turtledoves, or two young pigeons.

And, behold, there was a man in Jerusalem, whose name was Simeon; and the same man was just and devout, waiting for the consolation of Israel: and the Holy Ghost was upon him.

And it was revealed unto him by the Holy Ghost, that he should not see death, before he had seen the Lord's Christ.

And he came by the Spirit into the temple: and when the parents brought in the child Jesus, to do for him after the custom of the law,

Then took he him up in his arms, and blessed God, and said,

Lord, now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace, according to thy word:

For mine eyes have seen thy salvation,

Which thou hast prepared before the face of all people;

A light to lighten the Gentiles, and the glory of thy people Israel.

And Joseph and his mother marvelled at those things which were spoken of him.

And Simeon blessed them, and said unto Mary his mother, Behold, this child is set for the fall and rising again of many in Israel; and for a sign which shall be spoken against;

(Yea, a sword shall pierce through thy own soul also,) that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed.

And there was one Anna, a prophetess, the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Aser: she was of a great age, and had lived with an husband seven years from her virginity;

And she was a widow of about fourscore and four years, which departed not from the temple, but served God with fastings and prayers night and day.

And she coming in that instant gave thanks likewise unto the Lord, and spake of him to all them that looked for redemption in Jerusalem.

And when they had performed all things according to the law of the Lord, they returned into Galilee, to their own city Nazareth.

And the child grew, and waxed strong in spirit, filled with wisdom: and the grace of God was upon him.

Traffic jam in B

 

Building

Buildings are found everywhere in Beijing. Though I can't affort to buy one apartment.

Film-Forrest Gump

"Forrest gump" is one of my favorite films. I have seen it for many times. His life style is simmple. Forrest doesn't think too much of what happened tommorow. He has a great mother, who will do everyting to make him like a normel person. And she did, even better.
Jenny is the most beautiful girl in Forrest's mind. He love her. But Jenny can't control her life at all.
I copy some Memorable Quotes here:

Forrest Gump: Why don't you love me, Jenny? I'm not a smart man, but I know what love is.
Forrest Gump: Momma always said life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get.
Jenny Curran: Run Forrest! Run!
Young Jenny Curran: Dear God, make me a bird. So I could fly far. Far far away from here.
Mrs. Gump: You have to do the best with what God gave you.
[Forrest has finished assembling his rifle]
Forrest Gump: DONE, DRILL SERGEANT!
Drill Sergeant: GUUUUUUMP! Why did you put that weapon together so quickly, Gump? Forrest Gump: Because you told me to, Drill Sergeant?
Drill Sergeant: Outstanding, Gump! This is a new company record! If it weren't such a waste of a fine enlisted man I'd recommend you for OCS! You are gonna be a general someday, Gump!
[Repeated line]
Forrest Gump: Stupid is as stupid does.

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余杰：人生三境

人生如登楼，欲穷千里目，更上一层楼。人生有若干个阶段，哲人们有各自的划分办法。丹麦哲学家齐克果将人生分为三个阶段，即：审美阶段、道德阶段和宗教阶段。而德国哲学家尼采则认为，人生有三个时期，即：合群时期、沙漠时期和创造时期。合群时期，自我尚未苏醒，个体隐没在群体之中；沙漠时期，自我意识觉醒，开始在寂寞中思索；创造时期，通过个人独特的文化创造而趋于永恒之境。从两位西哲的邃思联想开去，在中国古代的禅宗、诗学、美学诸领域，也有好些关于人生三境的妙论。
宋代禅宗将修行分为三个境界。第一境界是“落叶满空山，何处寻芳迹”；第二境界是“空山无人，水流花开”；第三个境界是“万古长空，一朝风月”。三个境界中都有“空”字，三个境界就是对“空”的三种不同的理解。第一境界中的“寻”，表明人向上天追问自身起源，追问所谓“我是谁？我从哪里来？我到哪里去？”的三个千古难题。第二境界中的“无”，表明人已经从自然中剥离出来，与外在的“水流花开”自成一独立世界。而第三境界中的“万古”与“一朝”的融合同一，则说明人对有限时空的超越，经过否定之否定之后达到天人合一之境。
受禅宗思想的影响，南宋诗论家严羽在《沧浪诗话》中，提出学诗的三境：“其初不识好恶，连篇累牍，肆笔而成；既识羞愧，始生畏缩，成之极难；及至透彻，则七纵八横，信手拈来，头头是道也。”就诗人的主体而言，心灵最初是自由自在的，不辨美丑，处于童贞状态；当认识到规矩和成法之后，就陷入束缚和捆绑之中；最后摆脱一切外在的桎梏，获得了主体与客体的契合，也获得了真正的、纯粹的自由。这时，方能“行住坐卧，无非是道，纵横自在，无非是法”。
严羽之后，诗人潘德兴又云：“诗有三境，学诗亦有三境。先取清通，次宜警炼，终尚自然，诗之三境也。”潘氏是在说诗，其实何尝不是在说人生呢？返朴归真的人生，就是一朵“出淤泥而不染”的荷花。
最终将禅学、诗学与人生哲学融会贯通，铸为一体的，是晚清一代宗师王国维。王氏在《人间词话》中说：“古今之成大事业、大学问者，罔不经过三种之境界：‘昨夜西风凋碧树。独上高楼，望尽天涯路。’此第一境界也。‘衣带渐宽终不悔，为伊消得人憔悴。’此第二境界也。‘众里寻他千百度，蓦然回首，那人正在灯火阑珊处。’此第三境界也。”与齐克果、尼采的描述相比，王国维的论述是典型的中国式的，是诗意的凝聚，是精神的贯注。它包蕴了一种纯粹的生命体验，使人突破自身生活的惰性；它设定了生命气息充盈的坐标，引导人达到一种永恒的自由之境。
有这样的一种人生境界让我们仰望，我们何必惧怕脚下的淤泥呢？

God's Message to Women

*Author Unknown*
When I created the heavens and the earth,
I spoke them into being.
When I created man,
I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils.
But you, woman,
I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man
because your nostrils are too delicate.
I allowed a deep sleep to come over him
so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.
Man was put to sleep
so that he could not interfere with the creativity.
From one bone I fashioned you.
I chose the bone that protects man's life.
I chose the rib,
which protects his heart and lungs and supports him,
as you are meant to do.
Around this one bone I shaped you.
I modeled you.
I created you perfectly and beautifully.
Your characteristics are as the rib,
strong yet delicate and fragile.
You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man,
his heart.
His heart is the center of his being;
his lungs hold the breath of life.
The rib cage will allow itself to be broken
before it will allow damage to the heart.
Support man as the rib cage supports the body.
You were not taken from his feet,
to be under him,
nor were you taken from his head,
to be above him.
You were taken from his side,
to stand beside him and be held close to his side.
You are my perfect angel.
You are my beautiful little girl.
You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence,
and my eyes fill when I see the virtue in your heart.
Your eyes --
don't change them.
Your lips --
how lovely when they part in prayer.
Your nose so perfect in form,
your hands so gentle to touch.
I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep;
I've held your heart close to mine.
Of all that lives and breathes,
you are the most like me.
Adam walked with me in the cool of the day
and yet he was lonely.
He could not see me or touch me.
He could only feel me.
So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me,
I fashioned in you:
my holiness, my strength,
my purity, my love,
my protection and support.
You are special because
you are the extension of me.
Man represents my image,
woman, my emotions.
Together, you represent the totality of God.
So man --treat woman well.
Love her, respect her,
for she is fragile.
In hurting her, you hurt me.
What you do to her, you do to me.
In crushing her,
you only damage your own heart,
the heart of your Father,
and the heart of her Father.
Woman, support man.
In humility,
show him the power of emotion
I have given you.
In gentle quietness,
show your strength.
In love,
show him that
you are the rib that protects his inner self.

About me

Hi I am quietning.
I started my blog in 2003 at motime, and changed to blogger at 2005 when I began to use picassa.
I love blogger for it's simple template and easy to update especially for easy way to update pics.
I like to record my lift here. So 20 years later, when I read it again, I will be happy.

New sky

I create this new blog for myself.

The autumn of Beijing

the autumn of Beijing

It's very windy.

Pruning

(By Hugh B. Brown)
In the early dawn, a young gardener was pruning his trees and shrubs. He had one choice currant bush which had gone too much to wood. He feared therefore that it would produce little, if any, fruit.
Accordingly, he trimmed and pruned the bush and cut it back. In fact, when he had finished, there was little left but stumps and roots.
Tenderly he considered what was left. It looked so sad and deeply hurt. On every stump there seemed to be a tear where the pruning knife had cut away the growth of early spring. The poor bush seemed to speak to him, and he thought he heard it say:
"O, how could you be so cruel to me; you who claim to be my friend, who planted me and cared for me when I was young, and nurtured me and encouraged me to grow? Could you not see that I was rapidly responding to your care? I was nearly half as large as the trees across the fence, and might soon have become like one of them. But now you've cut my branches back; the green, attractive leaves are gone, and I am in disgrace among my fellows."
The young gardener looked at the weeping bush and heard it's plea with sympathetic understanding. His voice was full of kindness as he said, "Do not cry; what I have done to you was necessary that you might be a prize currant bush in my garden. You were not intended to give shade or shelter by your branches. My purpose when I planted you was that you should bear fruit. When I want currants, a tree, regardless of it's size, cannot supply the need."
"No, my little currant bush, if I had allowed you to continue to grow as you had started, all your strength would have gone to wood; your roots would not have gained a firm hold, and the purpose for which I brought you into my garden would have been defeated. Your place would have been taken by another, for you would have been barren. You must not weep; all this will be for your good; and some day, when you see more clearly, when you are richly laden with luscious fruit, you will thank me and say, `Surely, he was a wise and loving gardener. He knew the purpose of my being, and I thank him now for what I then thought was cruelty.'"
Some years later, this young gardener was in a foreign land, and he himself was growing. He was proud of his position and ambitious for the future.
One day an unexpected vacancy entitled him to promotion. The goal to which he had aspired was now almost within his grasp, and he was proud of the rapid growth which he was making.
But for some reason unknown to him, another was appointed in his stead, and he was asked to take another post relatively unimportant and which, under the circumstances, caused his friends to feel that he had failed.
The young man staggered to his tent and knelt beside his cot and wept. He now knew that he could never hope to have what he had thought so desirable. He cried to God and said, "Oh, how could you be so cruel to me? You who claim to be my friend - you who brought me here and nurtured and encouraged me to grow. Could you not see that I was almost equal to the other men whom I have so long admired? But now I have been cut down. I am in disgrace among my fellows. Oh, how could you do this to me?"
He was humiliated and chagrinned and a drop of bitterness was in his heart, when he seemed to hear an echo from the past. Where had he heard those words before? They seemed familiar. Memory whispered:
"I'm the gardener here."
He caught his breath. Ah, that was it - the currant bush! But why should that long-forgotten incident come to him in the midst of his hour of tragedy? And memory answered with words which he himself had spoken;
"Do not cry ... what I have done to you was necessary ... you were not intended for what you sought to be, ... if I had allowed you to continue ... you would have failed in the purpose for which I planted you and my plans for you would have been defeated. You must not weep; some day when you are richly laden with experience you will say, `He was a wise gardener.s He knew the purpose of my earth life, ... I thank him now for what I thought was cruel.'" 

步入婚姻

2005年4月29日，我和爱人来到民政局，办理了结婚手续。2005年10月22日，在庄严神圣的基督徒婚礼之后，我告别了单身生活，
步入婚姻
婚姻是什么？几个月前，我们两个人从来也没有想过。在婚姻中，如何做一名丈夫，将来做一位父亲，做一个家庭的头？我也从来没有去想。总觉得那是很遥远的事情，以后的事情以后再说。
但是，很多事情是人所不能想到的，不能掌控的。遥远的事情可以变得近到眼前。不可能发生的事情也可以发生。到目前，2005年发生了两件大事：一是我和爱人都成了基督徒；二是我和爱人结了婚，成为一生一世的夫妻。
这两件事情在我们的生命中都极为重要，一是让我们理解了生命，一是让我们认识了婚姻，立下婚姻的盟约，共同陪伴，彼此相爱，度过这人世间的日子。
什么是婚姻？
婚姻是个约。约是什么？我以前的的理解就是约定，婚约就是你我约定共同过着一辈子。这个约受一定限制，可能是你我的道德，你我的感觉。“君子一言，驷马难追”，但是环境变了（人们很容易把很多事情归于环境，也就是自己以外的，似乎不为自己所影响的东西），驷马难追也要追，宁可不做君子。一旦感觉没有了，就可以分道扬镳。正如我和爱人结婚登记那天遇到的情况那样。那天，我们很早就赶到民政局，期望我们成为当天的第一号，然而我们却意外地发现，另外一对年轻人排在我们前面。正当我们失望的时候，却无意中听见他们询问离婚办公室在那里？！我们如愿的成为当天第一对登记结婚的夫妻，但我俩却为前面的那对年轻人惊讶，虽然不知道他们到底为什么离婚，但我们都萌生了一个问题：婚约就是这样不堪一击吗？

现在我可以肯定的回答：NO. 约不是那样的。
亚伯兰和神立的约场景是这样子的，亚伯兰将牛羊劈开分成两块，“日落天黑，不料有冒烟的炉，并烧着的火把，从那些肉块中经过。当那日，耶和华与亚伯兰立约……”这场景最大的特征是死亡---牲畜的流血、死亡。立约就是旧我的死亡，失去生命，新我的诞生，从这一刻起，新我存在的意义就是为约而活。生命是我最宝贵的东西，都可以为约舍去，所有其他的一切还有什么可说的呢？
婚约也是如此。
我和妻子立约不仅仅当着众人的面而且当着神的面。
你愿意她作为你的妻子，在神和众人面前宣誓，无论是在顺境还是逆境中，在健康还是病痛中，在喜乐还是在悲伤中，都爱她、忠实于她，直到你们二人一生的末了吗？
牧师的问话中那个字是容易的呢！要守这个约何其的难呢？
结婚前的一个月里，当我每天清晨坐在班车里的时候，我常常问自己：你做得到吗？你凭什么？也正是在那些日子里，我逐渐认识到了什么是约的真正含义。
圣经分为旧约和新约，英文就是：THE OLD TESTAMENT AND THE NEW TESTAMENT。那么约的英文就是TESTAMENT，汉语的意思就是遗嘱。所以，不能轻易的立约，因为立约就是立遗嘱，将死的人才立遗嘱。立了约，就意味着从这一刻开始，我只为约而活。
当我回答“我愿意”这三个字的时候，我死去了。我放下了自己的生命，现在我在我盟约的妻子里面活出我的生命，她是我生命的表现。
在结婚典礼上，我和爱人将一首盟约献给彼此：
（羔羊）我以永远的爱爱你，我以慈爱吸引你，聘你永远归我为妻，永以慈爱诚实待你。（新妇）哦我愿夺得主的心，用我注视的眼睛，我的心如禁闭的井，新陈佳果存留为你。（羔羊）我赐你肉心代替石心，把律法写在你心里，我用水将你洗洁净，你的罪恶我全忘记。（新妇）因你鞭伤我得医治，你受刑罚我得平安，你受咒诅我得祝福，因你流血我得生命。（合） 将我放在你的心上如印记，将我带在你手臂上如戳记，你的爱情坚贞，胜过死亡，众水不能熄灭，不能淹没。 

A New Leaf

```````````````
He came to my desk with a quivering lip
The lesson was done.
"Dear Teacher, may I have a new leaf?" he said,
"I've spoiled this one."
``
I took the old leaf, stained and blotted,
And gave him a new one, all unspotted.
And into his troubled eyes I smiled,
"Do better now my child."
``
I went to the throne with a quivering soul,
The old year was done.
"Dear Master, may I have a new year?" I said,
"I have spoiled this one."
``
He took the old year, stained and blotted,
And gave me a new one all unspotted,
And into my troubled soul He smiled,
"Do better now, my child."
``
~~unknown

--> 

the moon.

肋骨

当我创造天地时，
我说有了，就有了;
当我造男人时，
我造他并将生命的气息气吹入他鼻里。
然而，在创造你--女人时，
我是在赋予男人生命后才造你，
因你的精致需要精心雕琢。

我使男人沉睡，好让我能耐心完美地塑造你;
使男人沉睡，好使他不能干预创造的工作。
我选一根骨头造你，就是那根保护男人生命之骨。
那保护他心，肺，与支撑他的“肋骨”，也是你的使命

藉著这骨，我模塑你，将你造得完美而漂亮;
你的特质，如肋骨般--坚强，精致，却易碎。
你，保护男人最精致的器官--心，肺;
心是那他全人的核心，肺是他生命的气息;
意外来时，整副肋为了保护心，会先容自己断裂。
你要支持男人如肋排支撑身体。

你，既非取自他的脚骨，使你比他卑下;
你，亦非取自他的头骨，使你比他优越;
你乃出自他的旁侧，那使你与他并列，贴近他心的身旁。
你是我完美的天使。是我美丽的小女孩。

你已长成为光辉灿烂的优秀女子，
当我看见你内心的诸般美德时，我的眼，便满足了。
千 万不要改变你的美好。
当你用双唇祈祷时，他们是何等可爱！
你的鼻被造得何等完美！你的双手被造得能温柔地去触摸。
在你沉睡时，我轻抚你的脸庞，我将你的心贴近我的心。
在一切受造的万物中，你是最像我的。 --

天凉起风的日子，亚当与我一同行走，然而，他却是寂寞的。
他不能看见我，或触摸我，他只能感觉我
因此，我将一切渴望与亚当分享的经历与本性， 融入你里面--
我的圣洁，我的力量，我的纯正，我的保护与扶持。

你，是特别的，因你是我的延伸。
男人为我的形象，你为我的情感。
你们二人结合，代表上帝的整体。

故此，男人啊！要善待女人。
爱她，尊敬她，因她是脆弱的。
伤害她，就等于伤害我，
你对她所做的，就等于对我做的。
当你压榨她，你是在伤害自己的心与你们天父的心。

女人啊！要扶持男人，在谦卑中向他显示我所给你的情感与能力;
在温柔娴静中展现你的力量;
在爱中向他显示，你是保护他内在自我的--“肋骨”。

LEAFS

The leafs fall off the tree.
The step of winter is near.

The best gift

This pic is the best gift I got before the national day. My wife painted it with her computer. It is so nice. I was so happy and even wet my eyes.

I am so luck to have you as my wife, I want to say.

Click here to see how she painted it.

Incredible solution!

一次关于EXCEL的使用求助，记在这里，作者的答复实在令人叹服。

问题：求一串数字随机相加，所有产生的可能的和。例如给出1，2，3 三个数，显示：1+0，2+0，3+0，1+2，1+3，2+3，1+2+3的结果。

Solution by Harlan Grove：

I've always disliked parsing approaches that use dummy characters as
placeholders. I also dislike the B1&A1&B1 because it involves an
unnecessary concatenation.

If this formula would be used a lot, then there's cause to use a
defined name like seq referring to =ROW(INDIRECT("1:1024")). Then you
could use the array formula

=SUM(IF(MID(B1&A1,seq,1)=B1,--MID(A1,FIND(B1,B1&A1,seq),
FIND(B1,A1&B1,seq+1)-FIND(B1,B1&A1,seq))))

to sum the numbers in the string. Without the defined name, it becomes

=SUM(IF(MID(","&A1,ROW(INDIRECT("1:1024")),1)=",",--MID(A1,
FIND(",",","&A1,ROW(INDIRECT("1:1024"))),
FIND(",",A1&",",ROW(INDIRECT("2:1025")))
-FIND(",",","&A1,ROW(INDIRECT("1:1024"))))))

As for the OP's follow-up asking for a way to calculate the sums of all
subsequences of the sequence in A1, it can be done with formulas, but
it's MESSY & INEFFICIENT. But when have I ever let that stop me?

Step 1: parse the sequence in A1 into single numbers in separate cells
using Data > Text to Columns, and name the resulting range nums. For
the OP's example, this would be 6 numbers.

Step 2 Select a 63 (2^6-1) row by 1 column range and enter the array
formula

=MMULT(MOD(INT(ROW(INDIRECT("1:63"))/2^{5,4,3,2,1,0}),2),
TRANSPOSE(nums))

点击这里看求助过程。

昨夜

昨天晚上的月亮好大啊，我跟你坐在我家的房顶上，很凉快惬意。

听说晚上可以看到水星，就是那个同样蓝色的星球。肉眼很难看到吧，我想。秋风习习的吹。

天边渺渺的飘来一轮"月亮"，我兴奋的指给你看，你惊讶的望着两个月亮，难道这就是水星？造物主真的神奇的不可思议。

那"月亮"竟越飘越近，好像能被我双手捉住！

该不会……？不可能的，水星几十亿年前就只绕着太阳旋转，不可能偏离到地球的轨道上来！

拉着你的手，奔向地心bus-近几年刚开发出的一种列车，可以直达地心掩体。

那车一直开阿开阿，那条路是近90度上坡的，路边看到很多废墟，据说多年以前，北京的故宫被恐怖份子炸了之后，政府就在旁边修了这条通天道，警示世人。
这简直就是一条通天路，我都不敢多看窗外。

终于到了路的尽头，竟然又是一部电梯！！――以前跟你说过的，电梯在我的梦里一直扮演反面角色。这部电梯绝对不会令导演失望。

不错，这确实是一部变态的电梯。我们进去以后，先是做自由落体运动，然后做加速上升运动，不过我对这种场景有点习惯了，看到对我起不到恐吓作用，电梯干脆失望的卡住了。

你毫无畏惧，因为我没有。

我跟你掀开顶部，爬了出去。

夜空依旧美丽。

水星擦着地球过去了。有一些猪啊，牛啊被飓风旋到水星上去了，孤独的吼叫着，随着那星球月行越远。

SUN FLOWER

I took this sun flower on the way to Grape home.
Beautiful! isn't it?

Early morning.

Is it wrong?

Question: "Is it wrong for a couple to "cohabitate" or live together before they are married?"

Answer: The answer depends somewhat on what you mean by “living together.” If you mean having sexual relations – it is definitely sinful. Premarital sex is repeatedly condemned in Scripture along with all other forms of sexual immorality (Acts 15:20; Rom 1:29; 1 Cor 5:1; 6:13,18; 7:2; 10:8; 12:21; Gal 5:19; Eph 5:3; Col 3:5; 1Thess 4:3; Jude 7). The Bible promotes complete abstinence outside of (and before) marriage. Sex before marriage is just as wrong as adultery and other forms of sexual immorality, because they all involve having sex with someone you are not married to.

If by cohabiting you only mean living in the same house, that is perhaps somewhat of a different issue. Ultimately, there is nothing wrong for a man and a woman to live in the same house – IF there is nothing immoral taking place. However, the problem arises in that there is still the appearance of immorality (Ephesians 5:3) and it will be a tremendous temptation for immorality. People will think that the two of you are sleeping together no matter what you say – that is just the nature of things. Even though you may not be doing anything wrong by living in the same house, you are still giving the appearance of sin by “living together.” God knows your heart and your conduct. However, since the Bible tells us to avoid the appearance of evil (Ephesians 5:3), it would definitely be best for you to find separate living arrangements – for appearance sake – until you are married.
For more questions click here.

公告

周六没去成箭扣长城。
天：阴雨霏霏，连天不开
地：路途遥远，周六难返
人：意志不坚，还要加班
天无时，地无利，人无和。

相约下周。
寻找……

箭扣长城

箭扣地点：怀柔渤海镇珍珠泉村西北
乘车路线：
三元桥或东直门乘916路（8元），或中型面包（5元）至怀柔舫膳站下车，箭扣班车就在马路对面标有西栅子字样，为一辆十来座的中巴车（票价5元，特殊气候路况票价有变动），班车每日下午3：00发车，如上午到有个体小面可打，约50元，说到箭扣赵氏山居即可。注意：如要坐下午班车，尽量12：30前坐上916路，或小公共,以防京顺路堵车。全程90公里。

线路号： 916(东直门-怀柔)
起点站首车时间： 5:20 起点站末车时间： 18:30
箭扣与怀柔县城之间每天只有一趟班车，早晨6点发车

老赵家电话：61611762

安排：
周六
　　8：00东直门长途汽车站集合
　　8：30出发
　　11：00到达西栅子村，住赵氏山居
　　13：00用过中餐后开始轻装爬长城，路线：北京结-鹰飞倒仰-天梯
　　16：00回到赵氏山居，当晚宿此
　　17：00晚餐
　　18：00晚餐后赏月
　　22：00准时就寝
周日
6：00打车至怀柔舫膳站
8：30到达东直门

地图：
http://www.meet-greatwall.org/ditu/wen/photo/xzz.gif

注意事项：
1、登山鞋或其他防滑的鞋子，遮阳帽、、冲锋衣裤或其他防刮耐磨的衣裤。有对讲机、望远镜、绳索的也请一并带上
2、水，食物自备。

PRAYER

I asked God to take away my pain.
God said, No
It is not for me to take away.
But for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No
His spirit is whole,
His body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No
Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;
It isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No
I give you blessings;
Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No
Suffering draws you apart from worldy cares
And brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No
You must grow on you own,
But I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God to bring things that I might enjoy life.
God said, NO
I will give you life
So that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me love others.
God said, Ahhh ….
Finally you have the idea ...

Be back

After about 12 hours on the train, we were back. Back to our familiar life and city.

During these two days I took nearly 300 pics and most of them were rubbish. But if you take TEN pics you will surely get ONE that not so bad. So I CAN always get some pics to SHOW OUT.

Enjoy the pics.

To Suzhou

This afternoon, We will leave to Suzhou which is a beautiful city in China. But I wander wheaher it is beautiful in summer. I will go and check it. And of course I will take a lot of pics. So be patient.
I'll be back.

Such a summer

It has been more than 38 Centigrade for three days
In the daytime, it's ok. We hide in the room with centre air-condition.
But when the nighttime come, suffering time begin.
I always have a cold bath. Then for a while, I feel cool.
And after the few minutes, I feel hotter and hotter.

Then I found this picture taken at the beginning of 2005.
It was a cold winter day, very cold.
I close my eyes, thinking 、、

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这样的一个夏天

连续第三天38度以上的高温
白天还好，藏在公司里的25、6度的恒温下
到了晚上难熬的日子开始了
先是洗澡，洗完很短的时间里
感觉一下凉爽
然后很快全身就热起来了

看看羊子冬天拍的天空
很冷很冷
闭上眼睛，感受一下……

I'll Be There For You

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even
your year, but
{::chorus::}
I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me too

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast so far, things are going great
Your mama warned you there'd be days like these
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees, and
{::chorus::}
No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Since you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me

Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the best with
Someone who always laughs at
Even when I'm at my worst, I'm best with you
Yeah!
{::chorus::}
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me too

Listen it here.

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这首六人行的主题歌我很喜欢，稍后尝试翻译一下，呵呵

我的翻译在下面，感觉翻译的很差，请批评指正。

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我会去那儿陪你

这样说来，没人告诉你生活竟是这个样子
工作是个玩笑，一文不名，爱情未到已经死了
在那些倒霉的几天，几月，甚至几年里
你好像一挂二档就熄火
但是
我会去那儿陪你
当大雨开始倾盆
我会去那儿陪你
一如既往
我会去那儿陪你
因为你也曾去那陪我

八点上班，十点了你还赖在被窝
早餐烧糊了，事情一团糟
妈妈提醒过你，这些事情会发生
但她却未曾提起，何时世界将把你摔到在地
从来没有人懂我
从来没有人看我
因为只有你，是唯一知道我滴

有人陪着面对每一天
使每天都精彩纷呈
有人共同开心玩笑
在最阴霾的日子，有你带来彩虹
Yeah!

我会去那儿陪你
我会去那儿陪你
我会去那儿陪你
因为你也曾去那陪我

A good account document

I spend about an hour to learn and make an Excel document to record all kinds of expenses which happens everyday in an easy way.
It's in Simple Chinese. This document is especially made for people who rent a apartment with a partner and want to keep all the expenses clear.
With this file, you will know where your money goes.

Try it here.
For home use try this one.(update!)

一个不错的记帐文档

我花了一个小时学习和制作了这个Excel文档。利用这个文档可以轻松的记录每天发生的各种费用。
这个文档是简体中文，特别是用于与人合租房屋，能够清晰的分清各种费用。
用了这个文件，你就会清楚钱去哪了。
点击这里下载使用。
用于家庭记帐的，点击这里下载使用。（更新版）

To my Yangzi

For the 2192 days we spend together

2192 days ago
We fell in love

8991 days ago
I was born
The days you appears in my life is about 1/4 of my life

The number is amazing when you think about it.

In the days with you
There's laugh, happiness, same interests……
Also, there's tears, disputes, mistakes
But thanks God, When I take a look back
I find joys, smiles
Cause we experienced all these things together

Look at the road laying ahead
Our energetic lives are bathing in the first morning sun rays
Beside the road
There's flowers and beautiful butterflies and colorful rainbow after the rain
Also there's little stones which make our feet uncomfortable, fogs which make our eyes could not see clearly
And lighting and wind and all kinds of difficulties

But we hand in hand
With the love of Our God
We'll enjoy all of them

Some years later
When we take a stop and look back again
We will smile in our heart

Honey
I send you the flower and want to whisper in your ears:
<……>


有你的2192天

2192天前
我们相恋了

到今天我已经出生8991天了
你在我生命里约占到24.37%

数字太神奇了
如果不去计算根本不会意识到
我在到目前1/4的生命里有你

有你的日子里
有欢笑、浪漫、默契、鼓励、忍耐
也有眼泪、争吵、误解、迷茫……
但是感谢上帝
当我回首这些日子的时候
我感觉到的是喜乐
为我们共同经历的所有的事情

前方，看吧
我们年轻的生命正沐浴阳光晨露
有绽放的百花，飞舞的蝴蝶，青青的原野，雨后的彩虹
也有硌脚的石子，看不清的薄雾，闪电和风雨

搀着你的手
带着上帝的爱
我们将一同一路欣赏

Want to rent a room

It could be a small but comfort room, not far way from Jinsongqiao(Beijing, China) and the rent per month should not over 1000 Yuan plus utilities (electric, bcable, High speed internet).
I plan to rent it for a about 2 years.
Any one want to rent out your room could leave your message here.

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插播广告：〉

想租一套房

要求在北京劲松桥附近，一居室，房间舒适整洁，月租不高于1000元。有基本的电器，必须有热水器。
打算长租。有合适的可在此留言。

I am your eyes

One game I often play with my wife named "I am your eyes"
It's very easy.
You close your eyes and walk forward without any help.
Your fellow walk aside only speak in case of danger.

Can you believe that he/she could keep you safe ?
Can you walk straight without any hesitation?

It's not easy. But when you take the "watch" part, you could say "Sure, I can be your eyes. Don't be afraid, just walk with faith!"


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我是你的眼睛

我跟羊子喜欢玩的一个游戏叫
我是你的眼睛
玩的方法很简单
我闭上眼睛走路
她在一边看着，不出现危险不说话

你能确认她会保证你的安全？
你能大步向前毫不犹豫？

不是那么容易，但若你是那个走在旁边作“眼睛”的那个人
你一定会在心里说：你害怕什么呢？多我多点信心！

关于幸福

In the mountain the Lord is seen.
Thanks God!
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关于幸福

吃了糖拌西红柿
再吃西瓜就感觉不到西瓜的甜

从来都没饿着
吃了一顿饱饭感觉不到吃饱的幸福

每天都是假期
对于周末就没有了幸福感觉

每天都可以用眼睛看世界
就从来感觉不到看世界的幸福

身体健康
就从来感觉不到健康的幸福

有爹有娘
很少会注意到有他们的幸福

……
往往在拥有的时候
却最可能是感觉不到幸福的时候

幸福是什么？
有人这样定义
历经困苦得到渴求或者超出意外的的东西
我觉得那是惊喜和欣慰更为准确

这样定义：
幸福是你一直拥有突然失去倍感悔恨的东西

想想自己周围的一切
什么东西丢失掉会令自己倍感悔恨
想想自己有多幸福

无题

不知道无题这两个字是怎么想出来的
大概以前的人动笔的时候不知道要写什么
所以，先写下无题两个字

我总是以为文字是有感而发的
而擅长写文字的人总是感情细腻
要是男人就会被称为：闷骚
--靠，与其在此敲键盘，不如出去喝酒

我虽然偶尔也去喝酒
但我宁愿更多的时间保持清醒
就算刀斧手要砍我的脖子
我也要清晰的知道刀划过

工作了这么长时间
发现一个道理
凡是闷头工作的人总是最先被炒掉
例子太多了
原来觉得很奇怪
现在想起来也能逐渐接受了
不是闷头工作的人委屈
确实他有需要好好想想得地方

石博士总是热情向上的
人也确实需要好好反省
踏实工作是要的
但不仅仅
还要有很好的沟通
没有团队合作是不行的

呵呵
……
我要带你去一个地方
一个非常美丽的地方
……
呵呵
真是没主题

周六早晨-小雨

又是一个周末
难得今天没有被占满
很早就起床
窗外飘着小雨
虽然
仍决定如昨天计划那样

洗漱完毕
练哑铃，俯卧撑，仰卧起坐
旱冰鞋装进背包
穿上深红色的防水风衣
下楼吃饭

7：30分
目标，四德公园
天空中仍然飘着小雨

四德公园比我想象中的人多得多
虽然略有点凉
但却甚至看到雨中一群老人打着太极

穿上旱冰鞋
悠闲绕着园子转着
雨中的初夏张显着翠绿的生命
心旷神怡

西西弗斯推着巨石
而我蹬着自己
上园中一个土坡
这里的最高点
然后放任重力
沿着小道
俯冲下来
听风声在耳边呼呼的叫

一次摔在小道上
几次冲到路边的草坡上
但更多次的
是呼啸而下
引一句话
要爽由自己

……
回到公寓
老曾翻了一个身
继续睡着

酒仙桥到崇文门

面对未知时，信心

好像很远
乘公共汽车也要一个多小时
所以早上随口说出要骑自行车去
说完就有点后悔
担心自己做不到

早上九点在维维吃过早点
计划十点钟到达崇文门
一点把握都没有

但是还是准时出发了
九点零八分到燕莎
20分钟后到达朝阳门
9点40到达北京站
9点45到崇文门

很惊讶原来没有我想象那么远
很多事情也是这样
没有想象那么难
没有那么不可逾越
觉得是好的就去做
不要浪费上帝给你的天分

光-圣经-戒指-爱

他说
要有光
于是世界上有了光

依靠他的意念
那文字将福音更广的传播
象大卫般歌唱赞美
于是世界上就有了圣经

嫁给我吧
期待在牧师面前
把戒指套在你纤细的无名指

什么是爱？
爱就是光穿过戒指投在圣经上

怎样才是信心呢？

信心不是不做为
不是消极
不是交付

既然给了你钱
你就要用来投资
既然给了你头脑
你就要用来思考
既然赋予你更强的能力
你就要好好的施展

要不然为什么给你呢？

没有赋予你不是你的错
但给了你却不去使用
就是大大的不同了

去做自己能够做到的
做好自己应该做的
两条都很重要

剩下的事情就是信心了

原来是开花的季节

班车沿着四环辅路开着
忽然看见前面隔断带的护栏上
百花齐放
姹紫嫣红
尽情地绽放生命
原来是开花的季节

真的应该称赞上帝
神奇的造物主

花儿就在哪里开着
很多天了
而我每天都经过
但以前的眼睛呢
以前的心呢

总是关闭自己
烦恼，愁苦，埋怨，自视清高
却从未想到
推开周围的篱笆
周围是何等壮美

我们就连一朵花都不如
花尚且知道绽放

雨下了一整夜

蚊子骚扰了我大半夜

先说蚊子
难道潮湿的天气它们就兴奋？

迷迷糊糊中想到
蚊子对于吸血是很在行的
你没有觉察的时候它已经在吸
你觉察到的时候它已经吸饱了
正在吸的时候倘若觉到危险
会毫不犹豫的放弃

我们很多事情都应该学习蚊子
第一个想到的是股票

股票盈利是血
我们是蚊子
不知道对不对
或许目光心胸太狭窄？
……

再来说雨
北京下雨的天气很有意思
有时候也会缠缠绵绵
让人觉得不太适应
甚至觉得有点不真实

这样的日子最喜欢摆上一堆瓜子
约上三两好友一起打牌
或者躺在床上听着窗外的滴滴答答声
享用时间的感觉

回想高中的时候
要是时间长没下雨
就洗好些衣服
不甩干就挂在屋里
用一个瓷盆接着滴滴答答
舒服的睡个懒觉

现在是不敢奢望了。

午后

午后，希望如同画中的那样，带着爱人，开心的轮滑.

脚趾头不安分

我的脚是袜子杀手
总是无情的造成袜穿孔
某一个脚趾头总要争取自由

一双双
残破了一只或者两只的袜子
仿佛战利品

我也想过
是不是脚趾甲时间长没有剪？
抑或是袜子太小？
都不是

是脚趾头太不安分

昨夜

我们已经走了很长的路
见识了很多不可思议
古老的埃及长老唤醒死去的先祖
赤裸的人们徜徉在没有寒冷的国度……

天色将暗
我们寄宿路边的旅馆

清清爽爽的冲了澡之后
在身上打上快乐的肥皂泡泡
然后一张大的毯子把我俩裹住

电视实在太无聊
而且前面好像还有很长的路要走
决定去浴缸里泡一泡

浴缸里有着一层厚厚的油膏
而且好像很久没有用的样子
这是唯一让人觉得不舒服的地方

次日
我们坐在一棵大树的荫翳下
看远处
我全身的每一个细微的神经都被震撼了
我无法描述眼前如此绚烂的美景

婆娑的树影高冲天穹
沉思的美人阴郁的背影
那边
蔚蓝的天空下无尽的黄石拥簇着荆棘的绿色
我的语言太无力了
我疯一样的去找相机要留下这壮丽的美景
然后
迷路了
我真傻留下来看好了

人为什么活着？

昨天躺在被窝里，疲惫不堪的我突然想到
仔细想想，大概有两个答案：
1、为了活
2、为了死

为了活而活着的人
要穷尽自己有限的生命
如同黑夜的礼花
绽放最美的自己

为了死而活着的人
要穷尽今生来赎罪
死后得入天国
享用永生的福份

还有很多人
并不知道自己为什么活着
“一切都不是我安排的，我怎么知道？”
所以过着不死不活的生活

为了活而活着的人
要求很好的活
很好有多好？

你要很好的活着就要
1、未出生前，妈妈要好好滋补
2、从小好好的吃奶
3、3岁背诵唐诗、宋词若干，
4、5岁之前认识ABC
5、7岁之前学会100以内加减法
6、进入一所好的幼儿园
7、进入一所好的小学
8、进入一所好的中学
9、考上一所好的大学
10、最好能够把学历提升到硕士、博士
11、找到一个好的工作
12、挣到很多很多的money，实现个人“价值”
13、买房、买车、结婚、消费
14、更多的消费，更卖力的挣钱
15、退休，养花，养鸟
16、死亡

多么可笑的条件！
母亲不滋补，婴儿就会傻？
没经过母乳喂养，还自就会笨？
不学加减法，不会背唐诗就上不了小学?
没有经过教育就不能够找到好工作？
什么工作是好工作？
没有好工作就挣不了大钱？
有了大钱就会感觉活着很好？

愚蠢的逻辑！

这就是一些人所认为的“很好？”
很好的愚蠢

不要去想去争所谓很好的过程
要时刻明白自己究竟要的是什么？

你要很高的学历还是自己的智慧？
你要很多的金钱还是自己的快乐？
你要美味的食物还是强壮的身体？
你要最好的药品还是自己的健康？
你要被别人肯定还是被自己坦然？
你要别人的羡慕眼光还是自己内心的狂喜？
你要漂亮豪华的轿车还是到达目的地？
你要高档的床还是一个舒服的觉？

你真真正正内心里需要的是什么？
很多人不知道
其中也包括我
一样的愚蠢
从来不去想

大家觉得好的就是好的
大家都争的东西就是好的
大家不要的东西就是坏的
盲从别人
却懒得动一点脑子

大家都说很好。
很好有多好？

什么是很好？什么是不好？

成功与失败

昨天得知成绩
虽然失败在我的预料之中
但是面试最低分着实让我吃了一惊

坦白的说
自己在很多方面确实有待发展
特别是经历了清华这次面试
更是深有感触

谢谢面试的考官
谢谢你的坦白和敬业
你让我突然惊醒了

生活原来很多时候需要思考的

又想到了那句话：
有的人忙着活，有的人忙着死

再难也不要输了自己

2004年元旦，我和老米决定考MBA
而且要考清华的
目的不是很明确，我甚至混淆了“MBA”和“NBA”
也许只是为了证明一下自己
不是那么的堕落和迷茫
或者是因为堕落和迷茫

总共的复习时间没有超过48小时
到了最后的时刻
考试前的一个星期
决定不能愧对报名费
每天晚上保证一个小时的学习时间

考试那天
和老米商量
我们的复习水平
只配乘公交车过去
于是颠簸了一个小时后
迎接了一天的考试
我们商定
再难也不能提前交卷
再难也不先输了自己

于是
结束了考试
又在公交车上颠簸了一小时回家

05年3月出了成绩
比A线低一分
不放弃
赶紧准备B线申请资料
一周后
很幸运获得了面试资格

该月下旬
参加了面试
感觉不是很好
但是我不放弃
明天仍去体检
即便希望渺茫

永不放弃希望
即便失败在前面等着
我不放弃

算算24

小学5年级，老爸给我出了一道题。对于5，5，5，1四个数，用加减乘除和括号，如何才能算出24？
我没有做出来，后来知道答案，哦！还能这样算？
今天路过一个论坛，看到求算3，3，8，8；狂算一阵，仍没算出来！
挫折感！现在知道答案了，切！
你能做出来的话，跟一下comment。

过去现在未来

过去是不存在的
因为过去已经过去
未来也是不存在的
因为未来尚没有开始
存在的只有现在

人的生命只有现在
不要愚蠢的怀念过去
或者
期待未来
那些虚幻的东西

把握现在就是把握你的生命
所以现在颓废吧
颓废你的生命
悲伤吧
淹没在泪水里
后悔吧
看不到明天

何不
抛弃
深呼吸
微笑
伸懒腰
精力十足
享受现在

关于呼吸

吸入：氮气（约75%，）氧气，（约24%，）水蒸气（不到1%），二氧化碳（不到1%）。 呼出：氮气（约75%，）氧气，（约24%，比吸入时稍低）水蒸气（不到1%），二氧化碳（不到1%比吸入时稍高）。
那么，两个人在水下通过一个管子是否可以利用肺里的空气，长时间的呆在水下？

元宵节来历

元宵节：是我国传统节日中的大节，颇为显要。元宵节的得名，因其节俗活动在一年的第一个月(元)的十五日夜(宵)举行而来。元宵节也叫"灯节"、"灯夕"，因为这个节日的主要活动是夜晚放灯，故名。此外，元宵节也叫"上元"、"上元节"，这是从道教借来的说法。　　
关于元宵节习俗的形成，说法颇多，但一般变为在汉代就初具雏形。史载汉武帝的时候，汉室要祭祀一位叫"太一"的神明。据称泰一是当时相当显赫的一位神明，地位在五帝之上，并有恩于汉帝，所以受到的奉祀比较隆盛。相传另一位汉室皇帝汉文帝也和元宵节有关。　　
这位汉文帝是大将周勃勘平"诸吕之乱"即位称帝的，而那勘平叛乱的日子正是正月十五，所以此后每逢正月十五夜晚汉文帝都要出宫游玩，与民同乐，并且确定这天为元宵节。不过，和这两位汉室皇帝有关的正月十五夜祭太一、游玩，并无张灯、放火的记载，汉室的另一位皇帝--汉明帝则敕令元宵燃灯，从而形成了后世张灯、观灯的习俗。
猜灯谜？ 我最不在行了，吃元宵倒是难不倒我。

Don't know...

Don't know what to write here. Life is peace and everything seems ok.

Happy Rooster's Year!

Ahaha
Come back here! After a short break, I came back from home. So Happy Rooster's Year!
Last year is the Monkey's Year and next year is Dog's Year.

Go home

Tomorrow I will on the train to home. And the day after tomorrow i will be home.
So, see you next year.

再忙，也要抽空删掉游戏

玩游戏？还是被游戏玩？
你以为你在玩游戏
跳入人类智慧设计的陷阱
试图与机器比赛

到后来
筋疲力尽
手脚冰凉
头晕眼玄
轰然倒床
才明白
我靠！
我被游戏玩了！

2005年要做的10件大事

1、读完5本书
2、攀登至少1座山
3、养活1盆花
4、学做3个菜
5、通过MBA考试，如果年初的考试没戏的话
6、锻炼强壮体格，溜旱冰的水平更进一步
7、详细了解北京的地产
8、关注一支股票，并达到收益20%的目标
9、照看好我家小羊
10、列出自己的兴趣清单，并深挖之
以上各任务均对我意义重大，看似简单，实则困难。
吾必将力行之！

Is that only a dream?

昨天做梦
MBA 考了207分，记在这里，等3月初看看到底考多少。
Dream of last night
My achievement score is 207. Still have the chance to get the interview of Tsinghua.
Is that only a dream?

卖点啥年货？

年关回家，总不能两手空空，可是北京有啥可买啊？
困惑中、、

MBA exam has finished

MBA exam has finished. I evaluate my score will be around 200 (145+60). That is not a very high score and it seems that i get little chance to achieve my aim.I hope maybe next year.
This time I only take a few hours, maybe less than 40, to prepare for the exam. I need more time this time, at least 150 hours.
I will make it.

Thank God!

Just now I found my walllet! I didn't lose it! And nobody piked it.
I PUT IT IN MY WORKMATE'S BAG MYSELF!
HOW STUPID!
But anyway, I am very happy to have my dear wallet back again! I swear to take good care of you,wallet, don't leave me alone.

I lost my wallet

Last Friday, I lost my wallet! MY credit card, My ID card and a little money in it. I was once Known of "never lose anyting", but not any longer.I still hope anybody who has pick it could give it back to me. Because that means little to him/her but life and death to me.
I'd rather believe everybody is good. God bless me.

MBA examination

Tomorrow, I will take the MBA examination.
So, Good luck to me.

Chinese stock market

Today I want to talk sth about Chinese stock market.
I have played stocks for about 2 years.In the first year, I lost little money. But in the following year, I paid a lot. 2004 is not a good year for me. You know, 2004 is the Monkey's year in Chinese. And I was born in 1980 which was also the Monkey's year. Old people advise people like me not to do any investment in 2004, but I don't believe their words. Now I got the punishment.Whatever, the Monkey's year will pass in about 20 days.That is really a good news to me.
So I seat down, Close my eyes, and make a wish: All money come to my pocket!~~

Blog in English

Suddenly, I want to start writing my blog in English.
I don't know why, just want to have a try.
So let's go and see, what do you expect to find here?
A Chinese write in foreign language here.

忙着活或忙着死

干嘛呢
忙着呢
忙什么呢
瞎忙

瞎忙就是不知道自己在忙着活或者忙着死
总之
忙比闲好
忙可以麻痹大脑
忙可以消磨时间
忙可以给人充实

但是
忙又忙的层次
有的人忙着活，有的人忙着死
不想解释

劝自己
忙着活
即使过去
忙着死